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Where is God In All of This?

My mind has been racing since yesterday afternoon (well, let's get real - it has been racing for almost two years when it comes to building our family) when I watched a video an old childhood friend sent me.  It was of him sharing his and his wife's story of trying to build their family with his church congregation several months ago.  He said he had been following our story and hesitated to send the video but finally felt that he should share.  He just said "fast forward to 1:28 in the video."  I had no idea what I was about to watch - I did not expect it to be him speaking, and certainly did not expect it to be sharing their story of a years-long struggle for a baby.  Tears streamed down my face (common theme these days) as I listened.  It is funny, I think his is the first story I have heard in a while of a friend going through this.  I have plenty of internet and new friends I have met in the "worst club with the best members" and I want nothing mo...

Our First FET (Frozen Embryo Transfer) - February 17, 2022

Written February 18 - Day 1 Post Transfer We have kept this under wraps as best as we could.  We wanted to be able to still have some element of surprise of a pregnancy announcement for our family and close friends.  When you share a transfer date, you are also sharing that pregnancy test results can be expected in ~9 days. It is a hard balance for me to maintain.  Sharing our journey has been so incredibly cathartic.  I also firmly believe in sharing to lessen the stigma, or the silence that surrounds infertility.  I want to encourage those new to the journey.  I want to educate those who are new or those who will never have to face this themselves.  I have said it before and I will say it again.  Navigating infertility sucks.  Really bad.  Also, when there is grief involved, I have a very hard time going about my life acting as if nothing is wrong.  If you were diagnosed with cancer or lost a dear loved one, you would not be expec...