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See you in a little while...

I was going to post about my recent workouts and training, and now my taper for the upcoming IMCDA, but now those things seem unimportant and minor.

I feel like I need to crawl into a hole. I need to get away from my "life" as it is right now and take a break.

I have been rude, hypocritical, judgmental, immature, and inconsiderate. Please feel free to add to the list as you see fit; I am sure I am missing something.

I have made bad decisions that have hurt people. For that, I am truly sorry. I am not perfect, but apparently at times I pretend that I am.

I have more going on right now than anyone knows, even the ones who think they know, but that is not an excuse, just a statement to say that I do not think anyone will fully understand where I am coming from.

Maybe I'll be back to life in a few days or a few weeks, I don't know. I just know for now I am done being me, done being the person who has become quite ugly.

Hopefully my time in my hole will do me some good - I can do some reflecting, praying, and thinking. If you are there when I come out, great. If not, I understand.

Please no comments on this post, I am not looking for sympathy or attention, just saying "good bye" for now.

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clea said…
I know you said no comments, but I hope you are doing ok. I understand a rough patch, and being upset with yourself over something....it really is one of the worst feelings. Not sure what I could do to help, but I am wishing you the best to sort out whatever is causing you so much pain.
June 2, 2009 at 6:55 AM
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