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Happy Thoughts

I just read Hugh's comment on my race report, talking about my "beaming smile" on the run course...

I just realized some of my absolute happiest moments in my adult life have been somewhere out on a race course. Sheer, utter happiness and joy.

The funny thing is I am never winning any of these races, and probably never will, and clearly I am 100% okay with that.

I only hope everyone else out there gets to experience happiness like that at some point or another, even if only for a brief time, because the memories of that feeling last forever. I also know there is far more happiness to come for me, ideally from the family of my own that I will one day have, and on those days I may look back and laugh at what used to make me happy.

The thing is I never know when I'm going to get to experience happiness like that. I may get to have it several times in just a few months, or may have to wait several, several months for it, as was the case with IMCDA. It is the allure of that happy spot, in the clouds, that keeps me always going back for more.

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TRI TO BE FUNNY said…
I'm so happy that you had an AMAZING race at CDA. It sounds like your forced slow-down was the best thing that ever happened! I'm still giggling at the moment of the CDA race when we were climbing the monster hill and you said "hi" as I struggled past! I was so afraid to turn around and see who it was because I literally would've fallen over at the lack of momentum I had at that moment!! Your enthusiasm was all over that course sister!!!
July 6, 2009 at 1:28 PM
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