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It has been a while since I have posted anything meaningful, but I feel like I haven't really done anything meaningful lately to post about, but I guess I have done a few noteworthy things.

Let's see...going back to Thanksgiving week. I had just posted how boring walking was. I guess I shouldn't have done that, because then I got sick and couldn't even walk. By the time I got home from San Antonio and Waco last Sunday, I had a full blown sinus infection and another nice bout with bronchitis. I'm learning that asthma really makes those things fun. Good news is I think I'm back to the living and feeling halfway decent again.

I did happen to accomplish two somewhat important things while in bed at the beginning of this week: finalizing a training schedule for IMCDA, and switching from the full marathon at Houston to the half. Both things have left me feeling much more sound and at peace with the way things are going right now. I had been very torn on what to do about Houston and how to be able to best be there for Kelly. I had thought that I could wear my full bib and just hop in wherever and finish with her, but then I'd always feel weird about the medal and shirt I got, knowing I didn't really do it all and didn't really deserve it. For some reason, every time before that I had thought about switching to the half, it wasn't an option. Then I finally had a moment of clarity and hopefully have it all figured out. The full and half courses are the same for the first 9 miles, so I am going to be able to run the first 9 miles with her (if she doesn't leave me!), then turn for my finish, finish my race, hop in a car and get back to mile 23 and run the last 3 miles in with her. This way I will still be an official finisher of a race and not always look back at it and discount what I did. I won't look back at it as the year I didn't do Houston, it will just be the year I did the half instead of the full, and there is nothing wrong with that at all. Maybe I'll look back at it as the year I listened to my body and did what I know is right. This year would have been my 5th year in a row to run Houston - that is big! But I guess I can still count it because I will be an official participant...just not in the full.

I do get sad when I drive around certain parts of the course that I know I won't be running this year, but that is ok. I know I have no business running the full right now and that I'd be miserable if I tried to do it.

Now I also have to face the distinct reality that even the half plus 3 miles may be very tough at this point! I have some serious training to do between now and then! Hopefully Kelly will be racing "smart" during the first 9 miles (aka going at a pace that I can keep up with) and I may end up walking my last 4 miles after that if it takes everything I have to keep up with her, but I do need to stay with her for at least a few photo opps! I also figure she will have slowed down a decent bit by mile 23 when I meet up with her again. But, if she doesn't, and I can't keep up with her at that point, then AWESOME - that means she is having an absolutely fabulous race. She can leave me - I know my way home and will make it there eventually.

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