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New Chapter

A new chapter in my life began yesterday. The new Kathleen is stepping out and going to leave her mark...or maybe not much of a mark, but whatever, you get what I mean.

I was in my PJ's ready for last night when I got a call to meet a few friends out for dinner/drinks. It was 8:30, I had to get up at 5am for my race, and I'd already had dinner. The Kathleen that is just going to sit around content by herself would have stayed home. The new and improved Kathleen thew on some clothes, never bothered to tell her friends she was already in her PJ's and headed out the door. I'm surrounded by awesome people, but if I just sit at home alone all the time, I can't really take full advantage of them. There are also new people out there to meet every day. I can't meet them if I don't put myself out there.

I am moving on to a new part of my life. It is time once and for all to close the door on the last stage of my life. It was great while it lasted, and I have some very good things to show for this last stage, but there was some also not so good stuff that I am ready to put behind me.

I raced this morning and saw Michelle and Cameron as soon as I drove up and was instantly excited to see them there. I wasn't sure who all would be there, so it was awesome to see familiar faces so soon. I saw other friends as well and was happy to be racing locally again. I also ended up having an absolutely awesome race. I took 6 minutes off my time from last year and placed 11 out of 51 in my age group. I was very worried heading into the race because I did well last year and wasn't sure I could improve upon that performance. Well, I was definitely able to improve and ended up with PR #13 since September 20. Wow. What an awesome 8 months.

It was a beautiful morning and we hung around after the race for quite a while enjoying hot pizza and everyone's company. As soon as I got back home I left again to go meet Shellie for lunch at Zoe's. That was Zoe's meal #2 in 36 hours (clearly I like it there!). We sat and talked for a good while and I was thankful again that I have met the most awesome people here through racing.

Later on, Angy and I went to a graduation party for Andy, who did IMAZ with us. Once again, it was great company, and with people I met not too long ago. After that I met another tri friend and her friend out for drinks (well, 1 drink for me - watch out!). We sat outside and enjoyed a rare beautiful night in Houston and just talked and joked and had a great time.

I hope I can make the most of this new chapter in my life, as I certainly have the people around me who can help me do it. I want to take ownership of the things that I have done, and do (I am down on myself way too often and sometimes have a hard time grasping the realty of the good things I have done and how great my life is), and want to work to be the best person that I can be. Hopefully you can be a part of this new chapter too!

Comments

greyhound said…
I really like what this post shows about you.
Jane said…
New chapters are good. We are all just muddling along. I like how you like the new Kathleen.

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