Today I am thankful for my sister, Elizabeth. When we were little, I always looked up to her and wanted to do everything she did. Well, nothing has changed now that we are older. I still want to be just like her. I kind of missed the boat on the whole husband and kids thing, but I can still hope maybe one day I'll have a family like hers with a wonderful husband and beautiful, awesome kids.
Sigh. Here we are again. We knew all along we would be able to start the process for baby #2 when Sloane was nine months old. I had said we did not necessarily want kids that close together, but knew just because we started then did not mean we would get pregnant then. If I had only known how true that is becoming. Silly us had started having visions of three kids. The only way we can have three kids is to have things go smoothly, not lose embryos, and not lose time. Well, so far we have lost an embryo and a lot of time in the quest for our next baby. I breezed through prep for our transfer in early May. The stress load was so much less than before because I thought we had it figured out. We had Sloane as a great distraction. My lining was better than it has ever been before - by far. Then, the day after Mother's Day, I found out it did not work. And I was immediately thrown back into the depths of infertility hell....
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